Sunday, September 30, 2007

at first i thought that someone hacked into my this blogger account, but only to realise later on that the num lk was on :/ (haha, my fearrrr since someone hacked into my email acc)

i buka-ed alone today at home, how sad ):
everyone went to out to get stuff, while i stayed at home and be a goooood girl and study.
haha nevertheless, it was niceeee cause i went ou to buy alottttttt of food, with noone stopping or telling what to buy and not to buy. HEHE
mugged, but doesnt feel quite like it, cause...i dunno. i studied alot but i still feel quite slack compared to mids ;0 omggg tell me im doomed.

anws! mummy bought for me this pretty pretty necklace HEHE ;B
okay, i have mathhhhhh all the way tmr from 9 to around 3? i think. (amath with mr lee followed by emath with ms lin)
i realised, the teachers that i really like the most are my math teachers (though i dont exactly favour the subjs. loll)

ok i shall go off now, do abit more revision and sleep so that i can 'rise and shine' early tmr. LOL (seeeeeeee what studying too much has turned me into!)

-Pink&Black

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9:49 AM

andicanttakethisanymore.shootme.

maybe, i've just made the biggest mistake.
i feel so insecure now. like the whole world's against me.
and for no reason, oh my. im imagining stuff.
but really, its scary
to know that you suddenly cant trust the ppl around you anymore
like,
i dunno.
and maybe i just need time
time to calm down, time to relax
time to finally think straight, get all my thoughts sorted out
but maybe after fyes.
cause i no longer have the time that i do in sec2
where every single problem will be sorted out very fast, cause well, sec2s life kinda carefree i guess (?)

and to that bitch, i freakin hate you. get it. aww so sad, you just failed to realise that everyone despises you, you, you and you. call yourself ~~my FRIEND~~ im sorry i had to do this, during this fasting month somemore.
ahhhhh its killing me (stop acting innocent, shooot shooot shoooot)

and pls, it might not be who you think it is, (:

i need to get distracted soon, qucik, help.
and wth am i doing here instead of studying? i dunno.
cause im too tired of all the mugging. and everything, really everything is just meshed up in my brain. info for exams, formulas, problems etc etc.
im drained. shoot me

AND IM GONNA FIND OUT, FAST. SO YOU, (YES YOU) BETTER WATCH OUT. IF ITS REALLY WHAT I THOUGHT, IM GONNA SHOOT YOU, DEAD. TRY ME (:

&TO ANOTHER YOU, THANKS. YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE NTH'S WRONG AND THAT YOU REALLY CARED (THOUGH IM NOT SURE IF ITS JUST PRETENCE).

-PInk&Black

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1:05 AM

Saturday, September 29, 2007

haha im evil but im laughing so hard right now.
conflict between three ppl, over someone. okay, not really over, more like about someone. haha plus all of them are bungs AND i eyecandy/used to eyecandy them ((: LOL. thish.ish.sho.amushing.

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9:30 AM

Sudilah kau menerima, tanpa sebarang duga
Ikhlas dari hati, nyawa yang kuberi
Janganlah kau tertanya-tanya,
siapa, atau pun dari mana.
Hanya untuk teman
Pada malam yang kau kesedihan
Atau sebagai teman pada masa kau bosan.
Memang diriku tidak boleh berada di sisimu
Tetapi sebagai ingatan,
penghargaanku bagimu.
Ini bukan pendustaan
Atau satu lagi dongengan
Hasrat yang tersirat di hati
Bukan yang buruk, bukan yang keji
Hanya kegembiraan yang aku mahu cari
Bukan hanya untukku-
untuk semua, untuk dirimu
Seperti intan di dalam hati,
yang sudah jatuh berkecai,
mencium muka bumi
di mana lagi hendak ku cari,
sebuah mimpi yang indah sebegini
di sini ku mengangkatkan doa untukmu
air mata mengalir membasahi pipiku
moga masa yang berlalu
tidak terasa pun sakitnya di hatiku.
Ingatlah pesananku,
tinggalkan yang dahulu
mulalah hidup baru
tiada makna di sebalik apa yang telah aku kata
hanya untukmu,
di dalam hatiku selama-lamanya (:

something from the bottom of my heart
i hope you understood it (with the help of the dictionary (: ) lol
maybe its better this way ((:

'The kind of feeling I've waited so long says:
i ask you right, you're not sad cause of me right.
cause the thing you sent to me, poem is it?

The kind of feeling I've waited so long says:
it's kinda sad.

The kind of feeling I've waited so long says:
and you ought not be sad you know'

HAHA. (:

-Pink&Black

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8:41 AM

-Have you ever felt so detached/vulnerable/invisible/lousy even when you're in a room full of people you know, or worse still, within the close proximity of the ones you love? I know I've felt that way a few times; or maybe I'm just over-seeing things/being crazily pessimistic/feeling insecure/over-reacting/being highly dramatic. But I know that whenever that seems to/does happen, it feels like all that desolation/despondency simply echoes around me, and then somehow bounces off the walls. The same walls which feel as if they were slowly, yet surely, closing in on me. Will it be so serious to the extent that I'll just stay rooted to the ground, not moving a single facial muscle, finding it hard to utter the littlest cry for help and struggling, struggling to.even breathe? Nah, I hope that never happens.-

i just loved that, from KHALIE's blog (:
im drained, very. dont have to ask why, its obvious.
im tired, i want you back. please? )':

-Pink&Black

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2:49 AM

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

i just woke up
its the same groggy feeling
but today i dunno whats up with my mood
the moment i woke up i just felt like crying and crying
dont ask me why. hormones.
i just dont feel like doing anth else now, just dont feel like going on in life.
i just feel like migrating far far farrrrrrr away and never come back
i dont feel like seeing anyone now
god, send down a nice stranger to me.
i need more hope and faith.

and this fight for fame (alliteration seh!) issue is really getting on me.
everyone's rushing for fame now, rushing to be known.
they rush for all these materialistic stuff so much, so much that they lose themselves.
then they become a diff person from who you THUOUGHT you knew back then.
they become a whole new person, a person who's fake on the outside.
and then you sit back and watch the whole picture, and you realise, its just another vicious cycle.

-Pink&Black

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8:37 AM

Monday, September 24, 2007

im happy and i dont know why (:
call me crazy
i have csp crazy testS tmr but im so carefree and i havent even memorised (lol)
amath test today was crazy
and im amazed now at how fast im typing all these out. haha must be due to the malay papers im doing in the comp now!!
i seem to have nothing to say today
just that i laughed so much today my stomach keeps hurting (raihan!)
and i went home very early today, like straight after sch, without any delaying or going to the toilet. hee hee!
ok i have so much to do i guess thats it for now
like everybody's mugging now and im surprised i still have the time to go and blog and stuff. HAHA ((:

j makes me happy ((:

-Pink&Black

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7:41 AM

Sunday, September 23, 2007

two days back its milo
yest it was coffee
today it was hot choc.
i think im going crazy
*BREATHES IN, BREATHES OUT*
too much going on is scary
amath tmr im doomed
csp ORAL and LETTER WRITING EXAM and COMPO EXAM. all these on TUES. and CSP FULL PAPER ON THURS.
im dead shit, barely through half of my other subjs. somebody just come and shoot me, thankss

(p.s. THANKS AMIRA! ((:)

-Pink&Black

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9:39 AM

Saturday, September 22, 2007

i just read smth very touching.
it just so touching that, im crying right now, but i dont even know the person.
cause it made me realise alot of things. as much as i do, i feel so helpless, like i couldnt do anything. no not for the poor soul, for me. oh man. time's running out now. what am i to do?

i think im gonna die from everything that happened today. seriously, too much to handle. i found out too much for my own good, too much to even try to make sense of everything and piece them tgt. today's crazy i swear. everything's making my head spin like mad. i dont know whats going on. i dont even know what i should do next. cause obviously, killing myself wont help matters, it might just make everything worse. i dont wish for things to repeat again. i dont want this life, maybe im trying too hard to be perfect, screw life.
now that everything's falling apart, would you be there for me, like how you promised me you would?
'even if the whole world hates you, i'll still be here. (:'
you said that early last year
but never will i forget those words, never.
i lied to you so many times, i argued with you over the slightest things, i bitchfitted (according to you), i throw tantrums at you, i bitch about you, i made you upset like a million times, i hurt you by attacking all your weakest points, i love to make you feel bad and depressed when im mad at you. but tell me why you're still here? you're still so good to me despite all those, i just feel guilty. i hate myself for that. you stayed, you stayed though you know me deep down, the kind of person i am. i cant thank god enough for this <3

-Pink&Black

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9:33 AM

COFFEE

I HAVE BEEN TYPING IN CAPITAL LETTERS SINCE HOURS AGO I DONT KNOW WHY.
AND A WHOLE JUG OF COFFEE FOR YOURSELF IS NOT. GOOD.
TUMMY ACHE AND GIDDINESS. WOW NICE EFFECTS. IM DEAD, SHOOT ME.

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9:09 AM

Friday, September 21, 2007

el papers over. though it was crap, i felt good cause it feels as though this whole big burden has been lifted off my shoulders. i like that kind of feeling, as each paper ends. and time flies so quickly, everything else next next week WOW.

everyone was happy when i brought home a whole box of donuts today (:
haha see, i managed to influenced my whole family to love donuts too!!
and i just felt like watching dead silence again but somehow it wasnt as fun as it was the first time i watched it ):
watching the L word now, haha hilarious and my nosey sis keep trying to peek at it >;(
haha my mum's so cool bout it, she knows its m18 but she aint care mannnnn ((: (not like its very bad also what right. hehh)
ok i think im gonna go do abit of work first before sleeping. byeee (((:

-Pink&Black

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7:24 AM

Thursday, September 20, 2007

and i just have to put this down, i think that people who dont read peter and jane books when they are young are like soooooo deprived. LOL. like, back then i used to memorise the lines. haha. sweet memories.

'this is ryan, this is tania. ryan likes soft toys. tania likes disgusting animals. haha sounds a whole lot worse now right =D'
LOL guess who!!

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7:34 AM

shagged.

with a tear stained face, drinking eight full cups of milo continously, like its an addictive drug, like its alcohol. its been so long since i last cried till my lips quivered. the feeling's scary. i can feel my heart beating too quickly now, must be due to the excessive amount of milo i consumed. its getting scarier. will anything happen? but i keep going on and on, ask god why. my life seems to be getting shorter, its getting harder to breathe now. school's suffocating me, but home's suffocating me more. its the same four walls i face everyday, the same tablet here, the same books, the same teddies.

and you're so determined to work hard, to do well. but you just cant. you're on the brink of giving up, you feel like you've reached the end.
im scared, i wanna do well. the thought of retaining has been haunting me. i dont even dare to think of the possibility of getting kicked out. im scared of facing the future, facing every single day, i do. im scared of acceptance. i always feel like sitting in a dark corner alone, crying and hugging my teddy till its wet with my tear stains, but im scared of the dark. im scared of losing people close to me. im scared for my friends, what will happen to each and every one of them? what will i do then? what if god decides to do smth to one of them one day? im scared of letting people down. im scared of high expectations, scared i can never meet them. im scared of exams, it seems so superficial to me. im scared of losing myself.

just to name a few, those running through my mind. im angry, annoyed, pissed. my feelings doesnt seem to cooperate well with my brain. honestly, im just tired of everything

but like i was telling dearest raihan, the sweet taste of victory is the only thing thats spurring me on. and maybe i've sort of decided my mind on what i wanna be. it sounds ridiculous. i never thought this way before. i must be crazy :/ but still.

i cant wait for exams to come and to finish. sounds crazy bout the exams to come part? yes i know but i dont know why. its crazy cause everyone will be so depressed but...ok i dunno. after exams, i have so many plans noone better dare interruprt them man. (:

i feel so much cheered up now after blogging! look back at the top part of this post. (and yes, laugh ((: )

-Pink&Black

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6:39 AM

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

i dont know why i've been keeping your letter in my pocket <3

today i had four tests. yes FOUR. first one, it was mly class test. then had lit class test, which was damn crap and we were unprepared for it (unseen prose) so we did only one question. heh. then next had mly listening compre and i totally stoned + slept. man i cant help it :// then i had to stay back while the rest could go home (!!) cause i didnt take yest.
so yes, all my tests are horrible. plus i did so much writing (for tests and also took down notes)

shit. what is your letter doing in my pocket?

-Pink&Black

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5:20 AM

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

I Need You- Leann Rimes

I don't need a lot of things
I can get by with nothing
Of all the blessings life can bring
I've always needed something
But I've got all I want
When it comes to loving you
You're my only reason
You're my only truth

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you

You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it's so amazing
'Cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
'Cause you've brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
And it carries me through
I need you
Oh yes I do
I need you
ahh i need you

-
old songs are the best
its so soothing and touching, ):
im in love with all the old songs that i havent heard for ages now. so expect to see all old songs in my playlist yea. and of course, constantly singing these songs in school ;p

-Pink&Black

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8:35 AM

cant take my eyes off you

some stupid annoying person has been hacking into my msn account and im veryyyyyyyy annoyed >;( (im gonna change password but im scared i will forget the new one ): )
cause lately i realised (thought?) that my msn nick or pm suddenly sounds so diff. maybe sounds like the kind of words i will put, but not from me. and till now! how can like Chain Of Fools suddenly magically change to 'cause i cant go on, living in the memory of my song' and my pm totally changedddd. plus my dp also changed! arghhhh. whats up with this person man ://

anyways! i feel damn productive today. finished studying for phys and bio test and its the fastest rate i ever went ((: but thinking of csp makes me sick in the stomach, really. had to skip mly prelims cause had listening compre for csp. and it was really bad cause i seriously dont understand A SINGLE THING the stupid ppl were saying (they sound so china-ish) but thank goddd the nice teacher gave us translations. as in the meaning of the questions and what the option means. and of course, i just picked some sensible answer and slept for the next 15 mins (: (haha, everybody was sleeping !!)

fye's in two weeks time and im the least bit prepared. i swear im gonna do badly if i really take the papers now. im dooooooooomed ): (blogging's a form of a break and relaxation!!)

what am i to do now? i cant see, im blind. blinded.

anws i was reading some things and i cried. cause they were so sweet and touching and yea. you get the gist of it. its rare you come across those kind of things. love is so strong. (ahem. love can mean all kinds of love okay)

-Pink&Black

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7:27 AM

Monday, September 17, 2007

HAPPY DONUT DAY! <3

to RENAME:
HAPPY DONUT DAY!!!!! YAY donut day celebration this fri yeah! and we shall get manymany donuts plus buke puasa tgt! ((:

im so tired now after hours of studying for only circles and matrices. i think matrices are stupid, really. isnt there such a thing called simple calculation? so long winded man, i dont like ;0 circles are very confusing and once again i shall say, CIRCLES ARE DECIEVING. >;( (ok enough bout math talk :/)

i feel productive today. and once again, monday felt fast and much better. donut day plan cancelled and postponed to fri. me and siti took train and there's this REALLY WEIRD GUY in the train, from fmss. we couldnt help laughing and trying to control our laughter I BET THE MATS THOUGHT WE ARE GIGGLING AT THEM! HMPH! lot one for a short while after that and we met amira and raihan :/ haha very weird/funny. i finally got my mooncake and im happy (:

things are diff in some ways now, i think i prefer it this way. sweet and simple ((:

-Pink&Black

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7:46 AM

Sunday, September 16, 2007

im walking on sunshine! ;D

i feel freakin irritated today cause...my period came at four :/
its very annoying, really.

anyways, i feel very restless today cause i know i have so much to study and so little time, plus i was out all day. but day got better. i love sing-a-longs with sissys in car <3
haha and of course im da besttttt ;DD LOL

i have nth much to blog about.
cause i must be very productive today, i dont care. omg its 11+ alr, i must go do my work! BYEEEE! ;D

-Pink&Black

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8:19 AM

Saturday, September 15, 2007

is everybody going crazy?

i feel damn stoned today. had emath and amath in the morn and it was really productive. now i feel more accomplished (cause i slept throughout the whole of yest night :/)
emath was circles and matrices. circles are DECEIVING ppl BEWARE.
amath was pure fun. haha cant believe i slept when mr lee was explaining to them bout the graph thing (AMATH trigo graph's my ultimate fav ((: ) when he's sitting like right beside me and everybody's like crowded around me? HAHA. then it was aqilah, raihan and amira's craziness. of course im the only sane one thank you. left sch really late and went out with family except for biggy sissy. i kinda stoned. but im happy i got my skirt (: though its longggggg ): and im going to use it on tuesday, no time to alter!! oh, did i tell you, we bought one hugeee packet of this drink and i actually finished the whole thing? :/

i have so much mugging to do it kills. though we have like a billion tests coming up (FYE not included!) i think it helps in my revision for fye. fye fye fye. why must fye even exist.

HANIZAH; dont be too sad okay! haha and dont be so silly anymore. you're still the besttttttt ((: and do go and see the doctor soon! before things get worse. and do come to me if you need any help! (: dont care, crazy or sane. ;D AND DO EAT HEALTHILY PLEASE! and do cheer up! its not the end of the world yet okay! its the fasting month man, so lets think positive!
xoxo, harneysahhh
(LOL)

ok thats it for now. im gonna go study bio <3

-Pink&Black

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6:03 AM

Friday, September 14, 2007

ohmygod. something um, freaky/coincidental happened agn. okay, not a big thing. just that i went blog hopping and i came across person A's blog and then i went to person A's sister's blog. (lets call her B.) that was two days ago i think. so anyways, around earlier this week, i went friendster-hopping, looking at random profiles. thennnn i saw person B's friendster profile. but at that time i didnt know. untillllll just now, when i realised, its the same person! a bit coincidental and freaky, this always happens :// its sucha small small world.

-Pink&Black

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5:37 AM

keep holding on

my energy level is like, one/two today.
i felt so exhausted throughout the whole day though im happy (cause its finally friday?)
no, not tired cause of fasting. its the usual tired feeling that you get on fridays. and from sleeping at twelve/one for five consecutive days :/
my back aches so horribly now i have to like bend to not make it ache so much )): i need diana's mummmmm! ):
i think im gonna sleep soon. then wake up to do some hmwk and study, most probably.
i was trying to be emo2 just now when amira and raihan were in the toilet (okay, i was just tired and lazy and it was windyyy and cold ((: ) but i got disturbed every five mins cause of waves/smiles and i gave up in the end and ended up laughing at myself (okay i dont make sense eh?)
i shall find more productive things to blog about later. im tired. and im pissed+upset+annoyed+irritated. this.is.the.last. (is it? ): )

-Pink&Black

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4:48 AM

Thursday, September 13, 2007

funny.

im very wide awake now and i cant get off the comp. so im here to blog again. i feel guilty bout not studying much tonight but when i think of it, i did so much in sch just now, so yeaaaa.
im so awake now, cause i drank coffee thinking i have a lonnnnng way to go till i finish my essay but...i finished it so fast i was so shocked at myself ;0

and hanizah's being weird. haha. but its fun talking to her! (mannn) haha cause she's one of the best crapper ((:
ambition: to get a car for myself AND **** when im 25. hehehoho.
im eggggciteddd! ;DD

i really like going to online shops now its so funnn! ;D haha and i want alot of earrings/studs man. (: im happy for now, at least.

-Pink&Black

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9:07 AM

cause you've had a bad day

today.was.baddd.
my mood started really bad in the morn and i guess it kinda lasted through the day, but got lesser as the day goes on.
the first thing i said to ameerah when i saw her. 'DONT.DISTURB.ME.TODAY.' haha okay i feel mean now but yea, she did make me happy during lit though ((:
then morn i was very late and mood swinging like hell cause i left house at like 6.20? and in the lrt, stupidaunty pushed me, so freaking annoyinggg and the cakeS kinda got squashed )):
the day passed by in slow motion. but it has nth to do with puasa-ing though. its just that thursday had always sucked but today was the worst cause we didnt go anywhere cause no recess and lunch for poor us so its like classroom throughout the whole day. i can go crazy.
and i feel bad not meeting mona, cause i just seriously wasnt in the mood at all when she came and i was doing stupid csp ;0
after sch had emath which was damn productive and im happy (:
my bad mooding started agn after sch.

i dont know what else to say now. life's so tiring. exams keep and coming and coming. nvr once when it feels like everything is REALLY over.

-Pink&Black

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5:18 AM

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

its not over.

today somehow sucked. i feel useless today.
i didnt touch any work AT ALL, not even studying. someone pls shoot me thanks. and my attempt totally failed i just feel like throwing the whole big bowl of icing at the kitchen and messing up the whole place.
failing over and over again is really getting to me. the whole frustration everytime doesnt really go away, it just slowly subsides and come back again when a failure happens. i so wanna change things but at the same time i just feel like giving up. breaking down, sitting at a corner and just hug my teddy.

and you're making me dislike you by saying all those things. lazy just doesnt seem like the right word. would rather you say dense/dumb yes?
thanks so much for demoralising us ah. from being one of the best, congrats cause you just joined the rest. (i didnt mean to rhyme it but ohwells) who.are.you.to.judge.us.
yea, you think we're bad enough. but why arent you helping us and instead just stand there watching us like this.

and i think tmr might be the last. expectations are so hard to meet. maybe not expectations people put on you. more like expectations from yourself towards others. its.suffocating.me. its so hard doing this, but what else can i do? yes im self-centred, cause im doing this for the benefit of myself. everything's just ~~starting~~ ending.

i just feel like crying but i cant let any tears out. this world's turning upside down dont you think. who knows, one day gravity will just suddenly be lost and people will start floating to outer space. you'll never know.
and slamat berpuasa-ing to all muslims (:

-Pink&Black

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8:32 AM

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

and once again it is true

yessss, i realised it is. (hanizah has influenced me to strongly believe in horoscopes now ://)

The Bottom Line
Just try to have fun while you can today -- you can't wait for the perfect moment.
In Detail
Have you ever have one of those dreams where you are trying to run as fast as you can, but somehow can't do much more than slowly inch your way along? Today might feel a bit like that -- frustrating, limiting, and yet somehow interesting. Whatever it is that is impeding your progress isn't clear, and it isn't important. There is no point in getting rid of the obstacles right now -- they are not going anywhere. Just try to have fun as you try to fun faster.

-Pink&Black

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5:54 AM

you deserve much better than me

man, that song had been stuck in my head since the past few days, i have no idea. it just suddenly came to my mind and i suddenly became sad/emo when i was singing it to myself (LOL)

and look at this website!! (www.bombislam.com)
its very annoyingggggg. >;(

my life's so boring and miserable nowadays my updates seem so...useless and pointless. maybe i should start being a nerd. who knows, cause their life seems much more interesting than mine now ://

-Pink&Black

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5:27 AM

Monday, September 10, 2007

horoscope !

omg this is so truee i kept ohmygawd-ing as i read it. haha guess who!!

The Bottom Line
The correspondence between you and someone else is getting more rewarding today.
In Detail
The correspondence between you and someone else is getting a lot more complicated -- it may finally be time for a face-to-face meeting. The two of you are working under some assumptions, and they need to either be confirmed or debunked before things go any further. And the only way you can do that is to speak with them in person and get them to answer the questions that they have been avoiding. You need to come clean a little bit, too -- so make a date!

-Pink&Black

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8:37 AM

those three words (:

haha. no, its not 'i love you' or 'i hate you'. its just 3 simple words that really made my day. boy am i glad ;p haha i was hugging zan cause first i got a letter and choc from dearest mindy and then those 2 words ((: i feel...touched(?)

i think i wasted alot of time at home today (just now) i spent a whole hour drawing cause all i see nowadays are just words and numbers everywhere around me. it was such a wonderful feeling (though i know my drawing is not good) oh no, its more like i drew what we did in sectwo, the black and white pics with patterns and lines and dots and nothing to stop your imagination (:
but at least im glad i finished mly compo and did a lil bit of studying. feeling SLIGHTLY more relieved cause i finished studying and practicing and god knows what else for 2 chaps of bio ((:

tomorrow is..apple day! (aka healthy lifestyle. loll)
haha apples are goooooood for us, i just learnt that. so im gonna eat apples more often now yay yay! (:

ok i wanna try studying a bit more and then sleep ((:
bye!

-Pink&Black

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8:08 AM

Sunday, September 09, 2007

im stuck at home doing hmwk+studying. i swear im gonna go mad (cause im perfectly sure i'll be in the same state like this for the next month or so, till exams are OVER.) i sure cant wait for that moment.
i have so much to do, so little time. plus many ppl's bday are coming. (and more of bday presents which i owe ppl.)

i did a study plan and im wayyyyyyyy behind. i've decided to not study physics until a much later date cause i have a whole weekend+1/2 a day to study for it, and we dont really have much memorization.

i've only started on bio, hist, ss, emath, amath and chem. someone pls shoot me. (STARTED only.)

i have so much plans for next week. (including manymany consultations.) bleh, not sucha good thing. and also...!!! ;D
hahah. i somehow miss school. oh man. maybe not the stress but just the ~~enjoyable~~ lessons and the ppppppppppllllllllllllll! ;DD

ok im so totally being random here. i.must.study.
(mona's my new motivation yay yay!! ;D)

-Pink&Black

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2:44 AM

Friday, September 07, 2007

my 300th post (:

im damn freakin tired now and i came home like 1/2 hr ago.

had pbmc drama in the morning and it was quite funnnnn (: we did dikirdikirdikir all the way and yea, it was okay, wasnt as tiring and boring as yest. (dont know why though)
then we left after the whole thing ended to go to mira's house to watch movieeeee! ;D haha we initially wanted to watch alone but the subtitles were like CRAP and its so distracting so we watched Dead Silence and it was greattttt haha those ppl were a fun bunchhh yess (ferind, aisyah, hanna, mira, siti, aqilah, rab, sitiraaaaa and of course ME! ;D)

and i just spent my money on the cab faree when its part of my money for bday presentS grrr >:(

i shall be good and do housework and finish up all my hmwk and studystudystudy! ;D

-Pink&Black

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3:07 AM

Thursday, September 06, 2007

its a sweet mistake.

and so i spent 45whole mins downloading and saving everything there is in the mlg for us. notes, worksheets, past yr papers etc. and i just gave up at ss cause its crayzeee.

pbmc today was okay. kinda dry and the mood's just not there. hanizah's the love (: (haha okay random)

i have so much studying to do its hard to just focus on one subj at a time. cause if you alr study veryyyy long for one subj and suddenly you'll be thinking, oh no! i still have the other subjs. then you'll move on and you need time again to get into the mood. ): ok im rubbishing.

-emo-ing from here on-

and now when i look at you, i wondered how those feelings came back then. i could only laugh at myself now. this world's so confusing. thanks for being who you are. the comfort you gave me was THE BEST. seven more days. you said you dont want anth from me, but i know you're EXPECTING smth from me, no? ;) <3

we're so far apart now. i wonder if i even know you now. you said you're the same old you, and i think im the same old me. but why arent things the same as it used to be? i miss those old times. thanks for the memories, its priceless. and thanks for being the bestest teacher ever, cause noone can ever taught me so many valuable lessons. <3

i mean everything i said, from the bottom of my heart. i will never, ever hurt you.

-Pink&Black

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6:17 AM

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

i have so muchhhh to blog about the 3 wonderful+meaningful days (:

day1 !
me, siti and amira reported to sch ON TIME (:
bus ride was extremelyyyyy long it was kinda tiring. everyone was being a pig, seriously. we ate, played, listened to music, talked, slept. and the whole cycle keeps repeating. had beef foldover for lunch! <3>
OH i forgot to mention. our makcik accidentally took this bag, thinking it was aisyah's (cause aisyah was holding it while I took my bag which is deep inside) and we didnt notice it till the next morn when we saw it in our room. and we got a greattttt big shock. then we realised what happened. no wonder when ms saifa told us bout it i was so sure i had seen the bag :/ dearest aisyah insists she takes blame for everything and i feel damn bad ): nvm i still love aisyah! <3 oh, and the boy who 'lost' the bag (joshua) was so cool bout it like nth happened ://

day2!
we went to dragon fruit farm and i bought some! ;D andandand! the flesh is prettttty pink! ((: and yes, mass falling into the chicken coop :// its so embarrassing i shall not elaborate! hehe. i dropped my math worksheet (i brought it in attempt to complete it in the bus and used it to fan myself instead cause we had to walk so much and its freakin hot!!) in the coop and i didnt dare to go back in to take it cause i was half traumatized :// i could see the chickens trampling on it everytime the car passed by the coop!! ): rubber tapping next and headed home for lunch. after that had bowling with COCONUT ( :/ ) and it started raining so fishing plan was cancelled and we had noodle making and ondeh-ondeh making. but more like camwhoring time for us! ;D then we weaved baskets and im so glad i finally mastered it yay yay! (((: night spent with host family, more like our mak only (: went out to eat and we saw cows walking at the roadside while eating!! ;DD after had a little grocery shopping and went home. (p.s. aisyah pulled my blanket for both nights to cover herself in it leaving me cold! )): ) camwhored a bit and slept quite fast for the night.

day3!
time to go home. we had fishing in the morning and more camwhoring at the paddy field! ((: it was farewell and it was sadddd ): oh! i shall blog bout my freaky disgusting frog incident too! >;( we were outside at the corridor, ready to leave and all and we were wearing our shoes. i was happily wearing my shoe when i felt smth in my shoe. i thought it was tissue so i pulled it out. and i realised like, eh? how come the tissue is black. and i realised.....its a big fat frog! hahah. i screamed like mad and flung my shoe. and continued screaming and screaming like a mad woman. haha (hello, i just touched a frog?) then makcik helped us to remove the frog. yay, so i was okay again. then when i was about to put on the other side, i saw another frog in the other side! -faints- haha then the whole screaming and makcik coming to my rescue process repeated again. hell, it was so funny! ;D oh plus during our last little camwhoring in our room, we were taking photos on the window and while aisyah attempted to close back the last window...it broke. :/ ok i dunno how to put it but the whole window just came off and we were panicking cause the makcik was alr waiting in the car and we had to leave or we'll be very lateeee. but makcik was so nicee bout it i felt reallyreallyreally bad ): went to teratak za'ba and i scraped my leg against this rock when i actually wore this thick pants and it was bleeding )): went to this handicraft shop and damn, the things were so pretty just that its all expensive like hell :// went for a little shopping at this super lousy shopping mall. but nvm, i got my bag (: and aqilah and amira started screaming when our bus passed by dunkin donut. haha. (sucha sad moment for Rename minus raihan. LOLL) then journey home was kinda nice. me, aqilah, aisyah and liy were singing loudly like nobody's business when everyone else was sleeping. and due to nadhirah's lousy singing, it started raining damn heavilyyy. LOL. oooh and there was this garbage bag beside our seat and ferind's bag dropped inside. nobody realised that it dropped inside and they throwed away the garbage bag. loll and to think they spent so much time looking for her missing new bag. haha! then everyone got annoyed cause the driver got lost otw to crescent and we only reached at around ten? when the other bus reached at around eight plus nine. haha this trip was so sweet i swearrr ((: <333

and of course, thanks and love to my groupmates!
AISYAH, HASLINDA, SITI!
yay love you guys! ;DD

i shall upload pics next time cause imagestation is so screwed now. and the trip is much more fun and exciting actually. haha im not good at elaborating this trip. and some of the pics are taken from liy (:

OH. and guess what. yest my parents+sis painted my room pink and its so pinkkkkkkkk now im sucha happy kid (: (even though im still upset bout not getting to go out today )): )
byeeee!

-Pink&Black

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9:20 PM

Monday, September 03, 2007

and so i just came back from Negeri Sembilan like less than 2 hours ago?
haha im awake now at this time cause i just had my bath and my hair's freakin wet. i have so much to update (((: (FUN!) but there's sch tmr at ten )): im saddddddd!

andand pictures up soooooon! (:

-Pink&Black

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8:55 AM

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